Tuesday's with Cherylann...

So today is a Tuesday. I brand new day. How times flies,just yesterday i was taking three of my N'levels examination. Namely,Physics, Chemistry and Maths. The papers were okay, but the Phyisics was quite difficult to a certain extend. I just can't wait for my exams to finish. After which, i can go to so many places. My most favourite place to go would be the pub called Chevy's in Katong. The place there is like damn jamming,ppl of different ages go there to chill out. But to go there, you must be a daring shit, it's like going there to open up to others,dancing and everything....i just cant miss out on cool stuff like that.

So on the 10th of October, the secondary 4's and 5's are having a graduation party thingy and Miss kok asked us to help her with the serving of food. Guess what, we also can go there and eat so everything is cool...seeing how ppl dress on that night, i think it would be a great time especially when i am there with a few of my closest friends ever.

So the other day, Yayoi was like if on DA day of the graduation party, if we were to serve the express ppl and if it comes to her cutie, we should let her go and serve him. It was damn funny,but she really likes him and stuff,so ya, I'll not interfere.

The other day i received a joking message from Hwee Li and i thought that it was a good one so here it is:

Before marriage:---
He:Yes! I've been waiting for this moment
She:Do you want to leave me?
He:No! Don't even think abt that
She:Do you love me?
He:Of course!Over and over again.
She:Have you ever cheated on me?
He:No! why are you even asking that?
She:Will you kiss me?
He:Every chance i get.
She:Will you hit me?
He:Are you crazy? I'm not that kind of person.
She:Can i trust you?
He:Yes.....
She: My darling!

After marriage:----Just read it from the bottom to the top...........
Enjoy!!! Something that will enlighten me whenever I'm sad. Although i am always a smiley girl....nothing gets in my way though.

Abandoned

As i was lying motionless on my bed, tears started to leak from the corners of my eyes. "Why,why did it have to happen on this night?", I wondered.Remembering vividly that a same incident had occured during last yr just the day before Teacher's Day. This yr, a similar incident also presented itself on the day before Teacher's Day as well. "What is wrong with this day?,it's like a jinx day!",i thought. Always putting on airs with my mum....sharks,my mouth hurt but i guess my mum's heart hurt.....even more.

Frm all tat crying,my eyes swelling up like a puff fish. Gradually, sleep lured me into it's warm embrace. Within minutes, i felt my body floating as though it was weightless. Slowly groping my way through all the darkness,i suddenly fell into a deep,black hole. With its powerful energy sucking m,e in, i could not restrain......

I eventually found myself at a very renowned train station,where i had always taken my usual tranportation frm White Sands MRT station. I vaguely remembered that my mum was the one brought me along with her to the train station but the crux of the situation was where had my mother gone to? She seemed to have disappeared into thin air.

She was not anywhere insight.,i was frightened and found myself stranded at a really crowded place infested with the ppl i did not regconise. Searching high and low for her presence led to a futile moment.....

At that time, i came to remember her dress code and the fragrant scent tat my mum emitted. It's a kind of sweet scent that gives me a secure feeling and keeps me safe. I had grown to this scent ever since i was young and without it, i just felt lost and somewhat empty. "Had my mother decided to abandon me?"

"No, wait a second, i think that's mummy."I saw the women's back view and compared everyinch of her to my mum. That lady seemed to be my mum as she was wereing a black blouse with her hair tied up in a bun. The height and body frame was exactly the same as my mum's. That had to be her,"i thought to myself.

I dashed across the train station feeling overwhelmed by the fact that i had finally seen where my mum was,from the back. I threw my arms around her waist only to find out that i had mistook another person for her.....i was extremely shocked another women face. She stared at me with glaring eyes like she was able to kill me with just one look from her bulging eyeballs.

The next minute i found myself on the ground with little scratches on my knees that bled to a certain extend. I picked myself up and at that instance, i saw my mother's face from afar. This time around, i could confirm that the women was my mum, as i had saw her face from the front view. There was no mistakes about that and i knew it very well.

Despite the throobing pain in my knees,i limped my way to where my mum was but even before i could reach her, she took a step forward and into the train.

"Doors closing" were the only words that rushed into my brain."No,mummy,no! Please don't leave me,where are you going? Open up! Please, no...don't go!" I broke down into tears,punching my fists against the doors of the train,without realising that there was blood on the doors of the train.

The trsin left and i felt so lost. Where am i supposed to go? I was feeling stuck at that point in time,like i could not leave that moment and come out of that tormemtuous situation. I finally awoke,realising that it was all a nightmare. But i could feel the hot tears burning my cheeks as it rolled it's way down to my palms.

Suddenly,i had the urge to go and give my mother a big hug. She embraced me and pecked a kiss on my forehead,on hearing my nightmare.

"Sily girl,don't you worry, mummy will never leave you out in the world all alone. I love you and you're everything to me!"Those reasurring words started melting it's way into my heart and i realised my mistakes. I should have never fought with my mother in the first place as she meant the world to me!!!

Joe Jonas

Modern Vampire

n'levels days...

Well, these days are known as the N'level days. So my postings are gonna be limited though. After the 'N's, i guess i'll have more time up my hands to post abt my everyday life. But for now, i'm juz gonna keep it simple. Today, nothing really happened in my class. Well i still hate a certain someone and he is always acting cool. Like what the hell, he thinks he is what,the smartest of them all? or you mean the sickoést---to watch porn every single day before coming to school. I can't confirm for sure that he really does that, but on second thoughts, i think he really does that kind of stuff. I'm the kind of person who speaks my mind...if i don't like that person, i would rather say it out infront of their faces,then keeping it all to myself. Only too bad, i don't even communicate with him..arrogant 'slut'.Well he's a guy, but since he speaks like a women, i think of him as a slut...

Monday blues

So today is the start of the week and i am like kinda wiped out already. Not many things happen today so i'm cool. But i recently, i keep on receiving stupid sms,One of which is 96223654,and 92326766. So this 96223654 called me twice and so i got fed up and therefore leading to me calling him back. There was no answer. Lame caller! Okay then i started sending this person an sms,"who the hell are you?" and guess what, i kinda missed up a few digits at the back of the no. 92326766 which i sent by mistake to 92326676 and i got back a "what"from the person. It was really funny at that instance....and i found out his name, it was James,i think a typical Ah beng. You know what i mean. The way he texted in his msg's, it was like reflecting like an ah beng. Afterwhich, i received another sms from 93820220,he said his name was Anthony,from Hai Sing Catholic and when i asked him how he got my number, he said he got it from one of the guys in my school. I was extremely shocked to find that out. I did not know that the stupid childish guys in my class would do such a thing. I am appalled by their behaviours. So i decided to do the right thing by phoning up the guy whom i gave my number to, Zainul and ask him about the whole incident on whether he gave any guys in our class my number. But as you know, he actually denied all the facts and even sounded really defensive by saying that if the situation were to worsen, then i should report the matter to the police? Like what the hell, he said that maybe i was like a victim when somebody decided to do a prank call on me? Wow i was thinking, like how could this person have known which school i belonged to?, he really did his best to do some kind of research on me then. Things that Zainul had said or mentioned earlier on, were really downright stupid. How could anyone just randomly pick my number, knew that i was a girl from Greenview sec and wanted to make friends with me? I don't get it, i do not have friends from Hai SING Catholic. Whatever, but there is more to it, and i know it. A stupid idiot from my class had done. It's just that i do not have the evidence against them. Darn it!!!

What i really wanna be? Who am i? Where do i belong?

I have gave it a serious thought as to what i wanted to be. I wanted to score well enough for my N'levels to be able to make it for Sec 5. I don't want anymore people to look us down again. It's been 9 months since my grandparents had hollered our house number. It's just quite a difficult task for my grandmother to pick up the phone and maybe talk to us, at the very least, that's what i reckoned.

So yesterday after school, we had our E'maths remedial. Everything was kinda okay. Afterwhich, Christal, Marilyn and I headed down to the very famous district,the Loyang point!!! We talked for almost 2 whole hours, quenching our thirst in the coffee shop. It was a fun experience as i finally had the feeling of what friends are for. We bared our hearts out to each other and at first, we thought that maybe we should just keep our mouths shut as maybe we didn't want the opposite party to know what really was going on in our real world.But after the 'sharing' experiences, everything just seemed to fall into place.

It was like 'hey, for the very first time, my friends actually knew what the hell was going wrong in my world,'and that really felt extremely good! To have an actual listening ear was such a superb feeling, especially when one happens to be your closest friend....let alone mine, i had 2 great ears checking out my story, and just giving me the moral encouragement that no other friend has ever given me. A reality check as to why i never once mentioned my 'stories' to my friends...(even my closest ones), due to the cruel fact that i was being stepped in the back way back in primary school. Only from then on did i realise that there were no true friends on Earth...and had learned my lesson that i should have never told my secret to anyone lest it gets out.

Realising the fact that i had blabbered my secret out to 2 teenage ladies, i kinda figured that they were responsible people and knowing that my secret is safe with them, i feel much more secure about myself finding true friends in this world. I used to think that the bestest friend of yours, would turn out to be your biggest enemy and damn that pharse, i experienced it in my Primary 6 school yr.( so many things happened in primary school,it's my most unlucky school yrs ever). So it's also partly due to the fact that i kinda want to take a step back from all these friends stuff, as i am really afraid to get hurt again!!! Currently, i have 3 really best friends,Marilyn, Xiurong,Yayoi....they're fun people to hang out with but up till this day, i had only told my heart feelings to Marilyn and another girl whom i also considered as one of my besties, Christal.

The both of them are really great people to be with. I would briefly describe them:

Marilyn: She's a really great friend who is willing to stick by you when you are in trouble, and difinetly not one who runs away in times of trouble, leaving you to clear up the mess alone....she is mostly the one who would be able to cheer me up....we kinda have the same nosy aunties trouble at the back of our necks.

Christal: Cool and really confident. She is a really funny person as well, also gives really good advice and able to make me happy most of the time. I just feel secure when being with her,there's never ever a boring time when being out with her.

Xiurong: My class partner who has beautiful eyes and clear brown hair. Very sick in the mind and really can click with me in that prospect. There are times when she can feel so low and at times where she can get really high. When she is low, it's like you cannot do anything about it and everything stats to be a little awkward but when the high part comes around, she can think of many things that always links back to the S-word...

Yayoi: The brave and daring one of them all. Always stands up for us if anything seemed to go wrong or not to her expectation. Cheers people on and gives me a sense of security. She is also like a good advisor- as in providing great advice.

So far these are the people i feel most connected to....i think i should just end here and hope that my friends will not go onto break my heart like what my primary school friend had done to me.

This is ME

----------------------------------This is me-------------------------------



I've always been the kind of girl, that hid my face.......
So afraid to tell the world, what i've got to say........
But i have this dream right inside of me,
Í'm gonna let it show, it's time to to let you know....
To let you know.


This is real, this is me,
I'm exactly where i'm supposed to be now.....
Gonna let the light shine on me,
Now i've found who i am, there's no way to hold it in...
No more hiding who i wanna be, this is me.


Do you know what it's like, to feel so in the dark?
To dream about a life, where your the shining star...
Even though it seems like it's too far away,
I have to believe in myself, it's the only way......

****then repeat the chorus****

###The guys part###

Your the voice i hear inside my head, the reason that i'm singing,
I need to find you, i gotta find you....
Your the missing piece i need, the song inside of me...
I need to find you, i gotta find you!!!...

Repeat chorus<3


The end people, be yourself and do be natural. Don't try to hide anything coz in the end, people would still be able to find out. Alwys be comfortable in your own skin or else you would be the one suffering silently. If you're unhappy with anything, let it show, it's not so good to keep things i

Same old school day

Today is almost the same as every other school day. It's just study ,study and more study. The lucky thing was that Mr Lao's attitude had improved so much more. I mean, it's so not like him to be so composed and stuff. He usually rants at people at his own wishes, like nobody could step up to have him stop his 'torturous'actions. So basically, i found him a quite good teacher when his mood was on cloud nine, but never when his temper is bad...he'll just eat your head by having to hear his yelpings. The poor ear would hurt, i tell you.

Anyway, Christal went back today as she had a terrible headache. I could see that she was feeling really swept out. Her expressions were listless, only until when she reached the English class then she stared to open up and we talked, talked for the whole one period. i reckon that she is more weak than the rest of us. Anyway as per usual, that bladdy Cameron is always poking fire into situation, nosy him, asked where is Christal and then remarked that how many times she had done that in this yr, then guess what, that idiot Gerald added a 'i think she did it almost everyday'...like what the hell, he is damn KAYPO. It's none of their damn business that she has gone home right, why must they say such things.

That day, when i made fun of that bladdy Gerald, at first i thought that i did wrong and was feeling guilty, but now i guess what i did was exactly the right thing to do at that point in time. Now i am saying this once more,(only glad that this blog post is open up to my friends),Gerald is a bladdy idiot who needs to watch his share of porn everyday before coming to school....sick right...wanna know how he looks like? Better not or else you would have a shock of your life...he looks decent enough to take people for a ride man.

The 'grand story'

What a weird story i heard from my uncle the other day when we met each other in the church. After that big 'glamorous' night, Jackie's wedding, it has gotten so many tongues wagging. Some of them did their part by chipping in those bunch of ridiculous stories that was pass from one mouth to another.


They actually said that uncle Alan has been pocketing the money his ex-wife gave to Jackie to have that grand wedding. When will people just shut their traps up and let these people live? They are invading people's privacy without their knowledge and some even do it on purpose.... That news sounded so bad that i could see a sense of sadness sweep Uncle Alan in the face. It was only a matter of time that tears would start to well up at the corners of his eyes. At that point in time, he was trying his best to laugh it off, but truly, i could feel that he extremely upset. As though someone had just spoilt his day.


He just didn't think that people would think of him in such a manner. In actual facts, the other night, we really enjoyed ourselves at the wedding reception but that was only for the kids and teenagers, as for the adults, they were having a face on the most of the time. They knew what was going on exactly,but just did not portray any hurting image as they wanted to help uncle Alan save his 'face'.


I really hate my Godmother, because she was the party Popper and the enormous spoiler of the party. With her there to instruct what was supposed to take place at the wedding reception, things stared to take a turn for the worst. A wedding was supposed to be a joyous occasion where everyone who is somewhat related to the people getting married are to chip in and help. But hey guess what, we were deprived of helping them with the preparations of the wedding details....like what the hell? I mean i am also their cousin, but why is it that only her 'so called' brothers can be allowed to help her.....what ever... to hell with her.


Going back to the fact on my godmother,who turns out to be the devilish mother behind all this mess. She was the one who was in charge of arranging our sitting arrangements....but why don't u make another surprising guess? Yes, yes, she mixed all our sits up and it ranged from the left corner of the room to the extreme right corner of the room. We weren't even reachable from an arm's length. I don't get what she is doing. Only when inquired from my mum, did i only find out that my godmother deliberately separated the family members up as she wanted on nonsense on that particular night.....I really can't stoop to the fact that i have her as part of my family members, now she has quit speaking to us as i feel that 80%, she is having the guilty feeling. Serve her right....

Cool me, or what???

Well, today was finally the day that i got together with my friends. We went all the way to City Plaza, that was located in paya lebar. We ate the crispy Arnold chicken...i brought my sis there. But this yr was more memorable as Christal came along. It would've been more fun if yayoi could make it.But all in all, we still had our share of fun.

Afterwhich, we went to meet our mother. Wow guess what, u'll never know what i did at a particular shop..there was this particular women who kept staring at us..she did that many times, and therefore leading to the fact that i screamed my head off at her.... I just did not know what gave me the strengh to do that thing.So what if we were laughing our heads off in the shop? it is our own mouth what....anyway, who say when me laugh then must but thing>>>>only that stupid women say...

No logic at all...she is jus a bladdy assistant in the shop and
still dare to say so much...at that point in time, i juz wanted to slap her face upside down...hated her ... made me shour like a mad women until when walking out of the shop everybody looking at us...but so what, now i finally know how to fight for my rights, i am not afraid of her already. Or the matter of fact, i fear nobody...i want to have confidence..... never let anyone step on my head... and don't care abt what ppl have to say as they have the freedom of speech

Slacking day...

So i did not blog for many days now. Let's do a quick update, for the past few days we went to find songs on our own, and guess what, we manage to pull it off. My sister as per usual is the smart one who is the one to find the way to download the songs.

I really take my hat off for her, i mean, when she sees the com, it's like she saw her mother. Like she can really comunicate with the damn computer. Well when it comes to such things, i am like the complete computer idiot. To put it in nicer words, i just prefer the nature better than these electronic devices and stuffs.

On sunday, i watched the movie ''camprock'' and it was superb... Demi Levato is so pretty like she is really fresh to eyes...she is a really a cheerful girl.And as for Joe jonas, he rocks my world man. He has that kind of cute face like i wish i could it everyday>>>too bad, he is in america..

Okay so yesterday and today was like slack day for the class. Mr lao did not come for two days and i really am hopoing that he would not come for the nevt few days. If only my wish could come through how nice it'll be right?

Ya sure, in my dreams, like u think a teacher wont come for three days in a row? juz what am i thinking??? Okay so this friday i would be going out with my girlfriends, and i am so looking forward to the trip with them. The more the merrier man. We are going to eat the fried chicken in city plaza---Anot Chicken...not sure if it is spelled corectly???

Anw, let's juz chill out and check out the cool picz of the Jonas brothers and Demi Levato...

My Quiz

This one is about my name...

What Cherylann Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

My Quiz

You're a Part Time Maneater

While you're not a black widow, you've definitely left a few guys feeling used and abused. You're only out for fun, but sometimes you get a little carried away with your flirting. Cute guys tend to make you lose control. You really can't help it! You're a good girl at heart... you just can't help but let your bad girl side out sometimes!

Are You a Maneater?

Last day...

So well today was the last day of exams and yayoi's mood was extremely bad. She felt that she had done really badly in the composition writing part. Seriously, i wanted to go and ask teacher about the latter writing thigie but it slipped my mind. Not hing much happen anyway. Juz went to mac'z and chill out with marilyn,christal, hwee li and Claire. Shall stop here for today, very tired and effortless......

New picture of me.

Actually i was took this photo when i was in my granmother's house. At that point in time, i clearly remembered that i was bored to death. Thus leading to the photo being born on this blog.

Reports on the events that happen

There are many things happening these few days, exams and stuff. It's just really difficult to cope yeah, sometimes i wish i could just drop everything that i am doing and juz close my eyes for good whole day. I've heard people say that life is not a bed full of roses....but then why is my so really un smooth??? Chinese listening was really tricky and ss paper was like- it blew me off with the stupid questions asked. It was totally pathetic, like i actaully went through all the trouble to study at least four chapters but in the end what do i get? Only a stupid damn question appeared on the question paper. at that point in time, i felt like pulling the hair off my head. If i had known earlier, i would've studied everything in that bladdy textbook. Damn me... i hate muself for doing these stuff to me.

okay so letting the sad memories fade away, i really wanted to blog yesterday as it was mt mum's birthday. But since i did it today, i juz would like to wish her again a very happy birthday.
Today-a really tiring day for me. Thought i was only going to have a friend over, but in the end, i ended up coming back with 2 of them. My mom was quite shock at first, but sussequently, everything was fine and she even got along well with them. At first, i always thought that this particular person who happened to come to my house was someone who was close to Lydia...but today then i found out alot things. I just found out that almost half the class hates LYDIA sIaO AND THINKS THAT SHE IS A b*t*h...at first i really tried my best to be her friend and so on, but after recent incidents i think my views on her has wavered.... I've never hated someone like i do for her. I really feel that she always act cute and for the further details, i shall not type it down in order to save her face....shall stop now and not bitch about others....

Reminder

I have just changed my blogskin so i will edit it sometime later...