Teacher's day

Saw this cool stuff and decided to have my id card done. Image chef, i've tried it a few times before but i couldn't find the right one. Maybe this is perfect for me...as blogger is still under maintenence. I haven't been able to post pictures and so i have been making use of MSN's picture location to hold all the random shots i've taken, it may be on FB too.

Today is teacher's day and i went to sch as usual. I got nothing for the teachers( hey doesn't your gulity conscience play?). Just kidding! We watched a movie called "Freedom Writers" and i loved the show- to be truthful. While watching the movie, Marilyn and i were making some sort of inside joke-the teachers should be glad to have us as students,luckily we're not such a troublesome bunch like them! But this is for plainly laughters,nothing personal though. After everything,we had our class photo taken together by Elfy. He's a cool photo taker, i gotta say...It makes our photo look really alive?

Okay then there was school concert. The concert kinda sucks? I only liked the girl who played the piano very well. I thought that only she stood of from the crowd. The rest were like ranging from no good all the way to extremely sucks. Okay so i didn't perform, why am i saying such mean stuff? But c'mon man,can't the women speak? The dancers were so dead,there weren't any life in them as they performed and they looked like they were being forced to dance infront of a huge crowd, they didn't agree to. The singers? No words could describe what i heard. It was terrible execpt for one of the choir members, the rest weren't too memeorable,or rather, they were "memorable' in a bad way. For modern dance, there was this guy in it. He looks a little gay coz he was the only opposite sex in a whole bunch of little girls. I couldn't relate to what he was doing though, i'm thinking he was trying to do a headstand from the side? But it didn't too successful or pleasant. The crowds in the hall were giving them "claps", as in sarcastically. They didn't really appreciate everything and so did i. That includes the guys in my class...i saw a few of 'em clapping loudly but doing it in a sarcastic manner,not one a person would like to have received. But it was hilarious when they did it. It sent giggles to everyone sitting on the bench...

So today many ppl came back t visit the teachers...So may ah bengs...I hate the way thier fringe falls all over thier face. So ugly...and i meant for the guys. With that coloured fringe haning down the side of thier faces makes them look like some "chao ah beng"...Almost all of them have the same hairstlye...So queer and ugly. I mean,guys are supposed to have hairstyles that keep their faces visible. Like clear cut, features that are able to be seen. Not one eye being covered...That's so yucky. Martin and Jermaine came back as well, but they looked good. Really straight hair man,for martin...Oka, i think i'll end here as it is.

Purity VOW... Stay pure till 21!!!

I can't believe i made a purity vow with my mum. I seriously feel that everything is so surreal to me. So if i don't go according to the vow, i have to hand all my money to mummy.(when i start working). I'm so not gonna fall in that trap. So i'll definitely stay pure until i'm 21 yrs old. How cool is that huh? Thank god mummy only put the purity vow to a minimum extend of 21 yrs old. But i'm sure that even though mummy didn't make such a vow, i would still stay pure,that is until i reach the age of 21 and found the man of my life. But all that is so not going to happen. At least not yet. I wanna concentrate on my studies and make it in life, i've come too far to let everything go down the drain now. So ya,but at the same time, i would make time for fun with anyone who purely wants fun...Friends, are such an important element in life,but they come and go as well. It's too difficult to have them by your side always. So we have to take things in our stride and live life like it's supposed to be lived! Okay weird sentence structure, but ya...read between the lines.

A fruitful day

What a relaxing day i had. Daddy made chilli crab for lunch and it was splendid! I loved every bit of it, execpt for the small fact that i hadn't really savour the meat in my mouth. When i mean splendid, i meant the chilli source that came together with the crab meat. So i hate the taste of crabs,the way it lingers on the tip of my tougue really disgust me to the core. But when daddy made this dish, he was doing it for the best of my mother and sister. Thankfully he had taken into consideration about me, where he had to prepare side dishes like the fried nuggets and smashed potatoes,or known more as the BARGERDALE...(don't really know how to spell this,correct me if i'm worng,thanks!). So to carry on from where i stopped, even though i hated crabs, i still got to enjoy my lunch with other dishes+ the crab's source.

Okay,so i did a rather meaningful thing today. I actually went to the library wiht my sister in hope to find a good book. What? I can't believe i did that again...Everytime i go to the library, it just feels like i'm tagging along with my sister, but to show some reasonable actions as to why i'm actually there in the first place, i start to grab a book. Any book that falls under the horror or killings genre,i would've had my eyes set on them. But the weird thing today is, i really felt the need to borrow something that i wanted to read. Something that i would actually finish reading before the week comes to an end. Coz we usually make a weekly visit to the library every other saturdays. It's very queer that my sister can read 3 different books in just a week..i seriously take my hats off for her! As for me,reading has never taken a hold on me ever since i was young,so basically up til now, it still doesn't really grow inside me. I don't know what it is that gets ppl into reading so much, but today i finaaly figure out the answer myself. It's just like you're in anoter world when reading. The power of a story to suck somebody's thoughts in and just sweeps them into a whole new place. It's an eye-opener for me as i didn't think that i would grow to like reading. So i think that this is something for me to be proud of,something i can say in a way that it is meaningful.

As per usual,there were many ppl at the library. People studying and people reading.(DUH?) We made our way through the crowd and found the related books. As for me, i found----Grieve and A girls way to vampire."
I'm currently reading the first book and this is the one that i like the most. The one to capture my wild heart for books. Ironically, this book isn't abt ghost or killings, it's more about a mother being gone-suddenly. I can relate to this very book because i once i had similar dream to what is occuring in this story. The girl's mother had been gone somehow,but i haven't read until there yet. I'm sure i would be able to find out the real reason sooner or later. As for me, i dreamt that i had been abandoned by my mother in my dream. Not a plesant dream to recall but it comes back as fragments of memories after reading this book. It kinda feels like deja vu, which i'm thinking in my case, isn't a good thing or something to be remembered. A great book for a good start...i shall finish reading every tempting page in it and i swear to,i mean c'mon, i have to finish it right? I can do it...I hope this books doesn't get boring.

Well, this few nights have been rather sleepless for me. Pondering over the family matters. It's coming so soon,too soon for me to face them. It's terrible for me,but i know i have to get it over and done with. Just brace up and face them-Cherylann!!!. This coming Satuday is the day and everything will be over..Just meet the aunties like you've always been doing. Yeah, i think i will enjoy myself...i'm not gonna think too much about what they have to say abt me, because they don't own my life. But the thing is,can i do it? NOOOOOOO, what am i blabbering about? I have to do it....!!!! I will do it,i must do it!!!

Another topic,pretty random,TEACHER"S DAY huh? Well, i've not been going back to my previous primary school and so this year won't be an exception. No gifts for any of the ya? Yes..there isn't,i won't hide any of this. I mean,there isn't any teacher that is really good...but initially i was planning to give one to 'chen lao shi' but i guess i shall not do so. Not that i have change my perception of him, i just don't see the need to give anything. Okay tht be all..imma go watch my korean drama---BOYS OVER FLOWERS!!! I've been waiting so freaking long--(one week ok?!@#$%^$#@)

Most papers---Over

Friday again!!!! That was a fast but hectic week once again. I had so many papers this week, english,MT, Maths,science...all i can say is that almost all the papers were done this week. I think i only missed out maths paper 2? Yeah, basically this week for me was so stressful and pathetic. I thought i was coping well with most of the subjects when i had to break out in RED sensitive skin...It itched real bad and i looked terrible. Even i, myself got a shock when i looked in the mirror. I felt so sad to see myself in such a state. Many ppl were glaring at the red and swollen skin....right on my forehead! I was extremely shy and didn't even dare get my lunch, therefore i skipped maths ppr 2 and mummy had taken time to bring me to the Doc. AWW, thank you so much MUMMY...without you there, i'm guessing i would feel bored,scared and alone....also having to cope with the "stares"....That's pretty bad. Of all places where the allergic reaction could occur, my face had to take the chance!!! Great....just great. But thankfully, i'm much better now. My sore throat is starting to subside and i have cured from the fever...Hah, i hope things are starting to get better?? Well i' sure it will.

Terrible Day

Today was sucha terrible day. How can i possibly be sick during my Prelims? Especially when i am going to have an English Oral exam tmr...I hope i'm so not srewed man! Just praying that my throat don't give me any problems tmr. Ooh...what a terrible sore throat...OMG,i really hate it! I'm in such pain...Yesterday was a nightmare for me, couldn't sleep at all + i had to wake up twice coz of the nausea feeling. Not that i just had that feeling, but i literally vomitted. I hate it when i'm sick. Medication really sucks like hell. It just makes my whole mouth bitter and even til now, i can still feel the taste of cough mixture on the tip of my tougue. I cannot believe that i just allowed the day to pass by like that. Imma study l8tr in the night. I have to...hope that i will get well soon enough...

Ok pretty random stuff,i was listening to a few songs by VARSITY FANCLUB, as intro-ed by my sister. The songs are truly amazing.

1)Future love

2)Like i always do

3)Babysteps

4)Why not me

And so many more....



Like I Always Do

Hectic week

OMG, finally it's a Friday...I've been waiting for this day for quite a long time. Well, i finally manage to restrain my self from logging onto the computer. Full five days of studying and studying. Had English and SS exams today and yesterday was Science Practical. Yesterday...was sucha "shameful" day for me. I couldn't find my sitting arrangement because the china girl was seated at my place and i was so nervous that i forgot to read the instructions for Physics practical. I decided to set up my own diagram as according to the picture,but apparently i did something so wrong tht kinda caught the teacher's attention.(i shall skip this part coz it's something u can nvr imagine i would do?!?!?)

After our practical, we were somehow detained in the music room. While we waited, my friends and i were deciding on the chalet that we were going to book soon. Well, this is like a substitution for the Prom Night. We decided to stay at a chalet, BBQ and play everything that was available. Hope everything goes according to plan.

Alright as for today...i guess it was partly my fault,or should i say yes..it is my fault....i didn't check the timetable and found myself in a similar situation like yesterday. I was nervous again when i had received the SS paper. Not that i hadn't study/revise for the test, but i could really use the recess time to do some revision for SS...Well, holding the SS paper really made me feel like raising my hands to re-confirm with the teacher, if i was sitting for the right paper....but in the end i had confirmed for myself and started to hate myself again...Why didn't i check the timetable???? So everything that i ahd studied for Venice came out, but i forgot everything as i was super nervous then. So i decided to do Healthcare. Something that i didn't really study for the exams but could understand and remember...also partly due to the notes i read from Julia earlier...Thx...

English was not too bad. But for speech, i'm not sure if i got it right-To bulit/Improvise? Which will it be...if it really is building of facilities,i'm so dead meat!!! I really dun wanna fail!!!! Aiyo..forget it, i already tried my best...and there's nothing i can do abt now..the paper is done and it shall end there...I'd better go study for my other topics...

What it feels like inside...

I finally realised that you have hated us all along. Maybe you did nurse a grudge against us, it's just that you had no guts to admit it. I feel so betrayed and used. Now,to me you are nothing but a bcak-stabbing Bitch!!! Smearing our names--is that what you're made up of? I'm really taken aback by what you've done. It was grave hurt that you implanted in us orr rather,scarred on us. They may not feel hurt or upset as i do, but now i'm feeling nothing but hatred towards you. Never have i felt utter hatred towards someone like i do for you. I thought that we could let it lay rested under wraps as the time passes, but i guess everything doesn't go according to planned. Things change and people change as well. You're the perfect example, one that portrays a two-faced liar. You're making things look so damn obvious to the naked eyes of people who might know us. I'm too afraid to think or imagine what you might have done to gain "sympathy" from the crowd. Everything you have done or said really has taken a great effect! Well you have won "their" votes but it doesn't really bother any of us. The only thing that really gets on my nerves are the little actions you pull off behind our backs, making it seem like it's our freaking fault. All the freaking teachers have become so damn biased. Not that i would want to mention any names here. But it's obvious....I'm aware that you might not be reading this, but if you do, i would be honoured. I don't care about what you think of me, i'm just gonna do anything if you really cross that limit. I don't even care if things were to turn out ugly because i have no feelings for you anymore...I regard you as one Bitch from Japan that i will never forget! Not ever in this life of mine....all those ways you betrayed us. I get sick from the sight of you and only now things are starting to get worser, i may end up puking. You should be happy i'm not doing it on your face. I still can't figure out why you have so many complaint about us...If you were really unhappy with us, you should have told us...!!!So you hate the way we look? F**k U!!! Did you really think that we loved the way you look? I really regreted not listening to my mother. She has warned me about you but i still decided to forego her anyway. What a noop i am? But it's set, you cross another of my path, i'm taking you on!!!

What it feels like inside...

Will be updated later in the night...

Tonight

A song that was introduced my by sister. It really captivated my heart and therefore,i decided to hit the search button for this official video. Jay Sean-i think he is a mix of American and maybe Indian? But more of the bollywood kind...the fairer version. He's quite cute and this song really rocks. It's pretty sexy and it's pleasant to the ears,until you really pay full attention to the lyrics nearing the chorus and during the chorus. Well, if you have the time, do check it out and you may enjoy it...Anyway i've already posted the video so it'll save you time from doing all the unneccessary searches. Till then, enjoy viewing ppl. I'm out!!!

Breathe Slow...

I'm running outta patience 'coz i can't believe what the hell i'm hearing..
& speaking of hell it don't compare to this heat that i am feeling..
I love you to much it shows, all my emotions go out of control..
Good for you, bad for me when i can hardly see from the tears that flow..

Can't forget to breathe slow, count from 1 to 10 with my eyes closed
'coz ladies taking in & get composure for i lose & get composure
Im going to breathe slow,
count from 1 to 10 with my eyes closed
coz ladies taking in & get composure ladies never lose composure

Not gonna lie or even try,
you've got my world spinning..
& i aint the one who shot the gun
coz that means you will be winning.. ohh yeee
I love you to much it shows,
all my emotions go out of control..
Good for you, bad for me when i can hardly see from the tears that flow..

Somebody better hold me back..
your lucky i know know how to act,
so lucky i aint gonna attack.
I'm being calm and cool but believe me you,
it's taking everything to just breathe breathe breatheee

Pardon ME!

Maybe after looking at things from a different level,i found out that i couldn't feel your pain. I was kept in the dark for so long, only until now did i realise the level of pain u went thru. I'm sorry for anything i said tht got on your nerves. Pardon me, but if you feel otherwise u really should've have told me. I finally understood the true meaning of ignorance being a bliss.
I really should not have gone "there"...now all i'm feeling is more pain than ever. My heart aches even though we're not really related by blood. Because now i'm certain of one fact-i can nvr halp you....Maybe i've not been a good friend and that's probably the reason why i didn't feel ur actual burning pain. I'm sorry. Even so many days has passed me by, i can't differentiate the real you. Coz i don't even know whether you're wearing a real smile or just something you choose to hide behind. I really thought for the closest fact that i could relate to you but somehow things change and people change with time. In those previous days when we used to chat so happily, i could feel that everything was coming from within. Like i knew who u were. These days, some things really have taken a turn for the worst, but still, i hope that everything turns out to be better. I really don't wanna be feeeling like this, like a fool. I hope to share your burden but i'm guessing you won't even consider. So there it goes, everything is settled. I'll just be someone whom you can chat with on the surface but maybe not any deeper coz i certainly understand how you feel. I'm not fitted to be anywhere near you. That's sets it all...We'll leave it to rest.

The hidden Love-You'll nvr find Out

Once Bitten,Twice Shy,

Never once thought that i would try,

But in the end, I did my part,

Furthermore, you didn't start...

It took too long for you to realise,

But evidently, all "those" were lies.

They cut me up,

Right through my heart,

Still, I felt we didn't part.

Didn't wanna let it go,

'Cause it was difficult to end the show.

Bleeding love what was i had,

Nothing else but our only pact.

Memories flowed through my mind,

Like a river did on a valley line.

It was the very last time that we ever met,

So never will it fade, those memories i had.

All you've given me was not only misery,

But also many moments of beautiful history.

Although it was meant to be,

We decided to try and break free,

Left our love carved on a tree,

That was what made you and me.

I'll never trade the times we shared,

For you and i, we both once had.

Burning my heart was what you did,

Cause up til now i feel the heat.

Loving you was what it took,

I risk my heart, for just that "look".

Managed to grin a bashful smile,

Even though it took a while.

I thought you understood me with all your heart,

It turned out that you didn't know me inside out.

The poem:Done by BeepZ and Salad!