My secret

I finally cracked. My secret was out. My mother got a straight answer from me. I was bashful at the time. I thought i could i almost pass out from telling my mother the "secret". My mother on the other hand was disappointed that i hadn't confide in her about my safely kept secret. On learning that i had somehow fallen for this guy, she asked me why i hadn't told him. How could i have done it? I didn't know what the right feeling was and i definitely didn't wanna get hurt. Mummy is totally out of her sanity, she claimed that if she knew that i had liked him, she would've done something! I love her craziness but it was not me to confess my inner most feelings for the opposite sex. It just wasn't gonna happen, NO, noway! And then she told me that if i hadn't tried to at least tell him , it would be getting me nowhere. I know that very well, but i'm just too shy. Beyond shy if you can even imagine. It was my secret and only for me to know. However, i let it out to my sister and some of my friends. During that point, i only claimed that "he" was a passing crush. Howvever, his looks are more than just a passing crush can hold. Those features aligned so well on his face and with every thought about him, it just burns me deep to the bone, making me weak each time. Moreover, he already has his special someone and i wasn't keen on breaking up their relationship. It just all happened to fast, i know i shouldn't have added him. Before adding him, he was still single and when i've done so, he's attached. Then it came to a point where i wanted to ask him a question but screwed up and so i had to write on his wall. Writting on his wall was a F**Ked up idea coz he was now attached to blah blah blah(a name appeared at this point!) I was like -_-. I mean it seemed so much better when i hadn't even added him and seeing his status being single was like a great feeling. And then mummy said "it's only a gf not even wife, can break up what?!?!" I was stupidified and flabbergasted at her expression. She was friggin cool with everything. It seemed surreal but i'm glad that i told her everything. I'm so sorry for not telling her before. I promise i'll tell her everything and when i mean everything, i mean everything! U r the best mum!!! Thank you for supporting me...LOL..:D