Days that are repeating again....

Today is Friday and it feels that the days are passing real fast. I had Mathematics remadial today and so i was the usual good girl who attended the classes. Luckily,teacher came late and so we decided to leave the place. But just as we were making our way out,we saw Miss kok and we made a quick move from where we were.....i think she kinda saw our back view but did not say anything. It wasn't only one time when we saw her,there was another time where we were on the verge of making eye contact with her!!! But in the end, i considered ourselves the lucky batch....we managed to make it out happily!!! Even took some photos and it was great hanging out with them though. Xiuring and Marilyn were decideing on watching a movie with Claire. They had asked me along and i did tried my best to plead with mummy but she just wouldn't budge,thinking that i was oly able to go out with my frends when i'm older. There i was hypnotising myself,that everything mummy was doing was for my benefit. Hey comón i really love mummy alot and so on, but sometimes i would love to go out with my friends though. It just seems to be so much fun hanging out with them. But still then, maybe things would be different when i'm with them!!! So i guess i'll just let the opportunity pass by......maybe things would be better when i'm older!!!

Papa's mass

Today has finally arrived and it's rather important as it's papa's mass. Saw most of the sickening aunties but didn't care to say hello. I just feel really weired when i c them now. It's like i cannot bring myself to try and communicate with them now. At least last time, i would try my best to go and blend into the crowd,but now, i am like what the HELL!!! Why should i shut myself upside down when it comes to them? So now i just do my thing and don't bother abt what they are gonna say. Anyway, to each is his own so I'll just let them be. All their sarcasms have drowned me dead...and i have no feelings for them already...but it wasn't like that when i was younger. As the years passed, everything changed as well,the relationship we had and the thoughts we had for one another!!!

Based on the cruel fact that my "godmother" didn't even bother to say hi to my father when he walked over,sends a message that she is still really guilty for what she had done. But my question is, why feel guilty when u've already done it? Just be a plastic like u always do and get over it. It won't hurt u that much though...Because u spare no thoughts for others.Cruel as it may seem,they are like that.

So i guess this years special occasion is gonna be taken away after judging from the performance of the family tonight. Christmas is the only time where we get to meet our family and now everything is gonna change...it seems so last time man....When will things be good again??? But actually i'd rather things just remain like this and be done with.....

Dear Papa,

when will i ever get the closest chance to see and feel u again? There are many things happening in our family and we need u to come and control it...I really hate this feeling-where we have a family but have no chane of ever getting back together again. Why in the world has these happened to us? Didn't Aunty Francis promise u that there would never be anymore fighting between us...well i'm telling u now,nothing is what it seems from up there papa...come and be the jugde of ur kids!!! Everything has fallen apart....

About me now,i broke out in rashes that is not so itchy and only starts to itch when it's being fiddled with,just last two days i had a fever that was controllable but i guess noow i am alright...my mum said that by next week if the rashes start to spread,then i really need the DOCTOR. Actually, i don't really know if it is rashes,if it is then good and if it isn't then bye ppl i think i'm gonna die soon!!! So basically i am done with my long posting,ciao!!!

Blessful time for me...

Today was a heavy day for me. Actually i was supposed to go for classes today,but daddy was sick and i was needed at home to take care of him. When it was nearing the later part of the day,daddy seemed better off so we decided to go out and grab a bite.

Came home and was totally wiped out. I took abt 4 hours of nap--or you could say it was a sleep though coz it was really long. Daddy was accompanied by Nicoleann to go grab dinner at Afganistan( a place near Tampines mall). The very famous Nasi Lemak..crispy chicken and so on,the taste can never run.

After which,mummy told me that this afternoon, while she was using the com, my cousin Bryan when on line and on MSM he asked if i was atill angry with him. But luckily my mum helped to type back and managed to set his mind at ease. I'm really glad that he still treats me as his cousin though. I thought that he had long forgoten abt me and only had he's friends in ming. But after today, i could tell that he still take me for his elder sister that took care of him when he was younger. So everything turned out really well and my cousin is still my dearest cousin of all. Because i know i only have him and his younger brother as my closest cousins ever. If i were to break my relationship with him, then i would cease to have any cousins.....

Tiring day ahead of me.....

Well today is Sunday and also a really fun day man...will continue tmr.....

what a day???

Beautiful as it seems,today is a perfect day. At least that's what i think.We started our day at Downtown East. My sister's fernds came along to the theme park and they were like crazy sia....they sat almost every single ride available except for the goal cart as it was too scary for them.There were two malay girls who extremly adorable and my mum said that one of them was kinda familiar....her name was izzah..The other two was Aloy and Jayce. They were really cute and everything.At first,the four girls--my sister ,Jayce,Izzah and natasha were pairing up with each otherand for two rides they were leaving Aloy behind. It's damn funny.....his face was like he was being played out..

Another thing that happened.......i had already planned to go to wild wild wet tmr with a few of my frends, but who knows that i will come my menses on this day...it's just so terrible u know.I can't describe the feeling inside of me.It's like i don't know how to face my frend that i have made plans with.....i am so shy to tell them the cruel fact u know...but guess what,they are a tamed bunch of ppl i've met man. I mean no scoldings or any other stuff...it's just okay never next week also can..

Therefore we pushed the date to next week....same day at the same time....anyway over here,i would like to give a shout out to Xiurong,Claire and Christal for being such nice and cool buddies of mine. I really appreciate it girls!!! Thanks alot...see you next sunday for some cool hard fun man!!!

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Finish papers...

Yo,the N's are totally over man...Slack my time through for at least a day.. I am drained out.Need some rest to heal my exposed wounds. No, i just kidding...but guess what i kinda caught the flu during the exam period and i felt terrible man. It's like eating me inside out. But what could i do, i just had tissue in my right hand and flying papers in my left...i can't believe that i have gone through so many paper already...it's like wow,in a blink of an eye. I was really stressed at first,before the exams...but all thanks to my wonderful sister,she managed to calm me down...

This is my sista......very pretty right.. My sis

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