Tuesday's with Cherylann...

So today is a Tuesday. I brand new day. How times flies,just yesterday i was taking three of my N'levels examination. Namely,Physics, Chemistry and Maths. The papers were okay, but the Phyisics was quite difficult to a certain extend. I just can't wait for my exams to finish. After which, i can go to so many places. My most favourite place to go would be the pub called Chevy's in Katong. The place there is like damn jamming,ppl of different ages go there to chill out. But to go there, you must be a daring shit, it's like going there to open up to others,dancing and everything....i just cant miss out on cool stuff like that.

So on the 10th of October, the secondary 4's and 5's are having a graduation party thingy and Miss kok asked us to help her with the serving of food. Guess what, we also can go there and eat so everything is cool...seeing how ppl dress on that night, i think it would be a great time especially when i am there with a few of my closest friends ever.

So the other day, Yayoi was like if on DA day of the graduation party, if we were to serve the express ppl and if it comes to her cutie, we should let her go and serve him. It was damn funny,but she really likes him and stuff,so ya, I'll not interfere.

The other day i received a joking message from Hwee Li and i thought that it was a good one so here it is:

Before marriage:---
He:Yes! I've been waiting for this moment
She:Do you want to leave me?
He:No! Don't even think abt that
She:Do you love me?
He:Of course!Over and over again.
She:Have you ever cheated on me?
He:No! why are you even asking that?
She:Will you kiss me?
He:Every chance i get.
She:Will you hit me?
He:Are you crazy? I'm not that kind of person.
She:Can i trust you?
He:Yes.....
She: My darling!

After marriage:----Just read it from the bottom to the top...........
Enjoy!!! Something that will enlighten me whenever I'm sad. Although i am always a smiley girl....nothing gets in my way though.

Abandoned

As i was lying motionless on my bed, tears started to leak from the corners of my eyes. "Why,why did it have to happen on this night?", I wondered.Remembering vividly that a same incident had occured during last yr just the day before Teacher's Day. This yr, a similar incident also presented itself on the day before Teacher's Day as well. "What is wrong with this day?,it's like a jinx day!",i thought. Always putting on airs with my mum....sharks,my mouth hurt but i guess my mum's heart hurt.....even more.

Frm all tat crying,my eyes swelling up like a puff fish. Gradually, sleep lured me into it's warm embrace. Within minutes, i felt my body floating as though it was weightless. Slowly groping my way through all the darkness,i suddenly fell into a deep,black hole. With its powerful energy sucking m,e in, i could not restrain......

I eventually found myself at a very renowned train station,where i had always taken my usual tranportation frm White Sands MRT station. I vaguely remembered that my mum was the one brought me along with her to the train station but the crux of the situation was where had my mother gone to? She seemed to have disappeared into thin air.

She was not anywhere insight.,i was frightened and found myself stranded at a really crowded place infested with the ppl i did not regconise. Searching high and low for her presence led to a futile moment.....

At that time, i came to remember her dress code and the fragrant scent tat my mum emitted. It's a kind of sweet scent that gives me a secure feeling and keeps me safe. I had grown to this scent ever since i was young and without it, i just felt lost and somewhat empty. "Had my mother decided to abandon me?"

"No, wait a second, i think that's mummy."I saw the women's back view and compared everyinch of her to my mum. That lady seemed to be my mum as she was wereing a black blouse with her hair tied up in a bun. The height and body frame was exactly the same as my mum's. That had to be her,"i thought to myself.

I dashed across the train station feeling overwhelmed by the fact that i had finally seen where my mum was,from the back. I threw my arms around her waist only to find out that i had mistook another person for her.....i was extremely shocked another women face. She stared at me with glaring eyes like she was able to kill me with just one look from her bulging eyeballs.

The next minute i found myself on the ground with little scratches on my knees that bled to a certain extend. I picked myself up and at that instance, i saw my mother's face from afar. This time around, i could confirm that the women was my mum, as i had saw her face from the front view. There was no mistakes about that and i knew it very well.

Despite the throobing pain in my knees,i limped my way to where my mum was but even before i could reach her, she took a step forward and into the train.

"Doors closing" were the only words that rushed into my brain."No,mummy,no! Please don't leave me,where are you going? Open up! Please, no...don't go!" I broke down into tears,punching my fists against the doors of the train,without realising that there was blood on the doors of the train.

The trsin left and i felt so lost. Where am i supposed to go? I was feeling stuck at that point in time,like i could not leave that moment and come out of that tormemtuous situation. I finally awoke,realising that it was all a nightmare. But i could feel the hot tears burning my cheeks as it rolled it's way down to my palms.

Suddenly,i had the urge to go and give my mother a big hug. She embraced me and pecked a kiss on my forehead,on hearing my nightmare.

"Sily girl,don't you worry, mummy will never leave you out in the world all alone. I love you and you're everything to me!"Those reasurring words started melting it's way into my heart and i realised my mistakes. I should have never fought with my mother in the first place as she meant the world to me!!!

Joe Jonas

Modern Vampire

n'levels days...

Well, these days are known as the N'level days. So my postings are gonna be limited though. After the 'N's, i guess i'll have more time up my hands to post abt my everyday life. But for now, i'm juz gonna keep it simple. Today, nothing really happened in my class. Well i still hate a certain someone and he is always acting cool. Like what the hell, he thinks he is what,the smartest of them all? or you mean the sickoést---to watch porn every single day before coming to school. I can't confirm for sure that he really does that, but on second thoughts, i think he really does that kind of stuff. I'm the kind of person who speaks my mind...if i don't like that person, i would rather say it out infront of their faces,then keeping it all to myself. Only too bad, i don't even communicate with him..arrogant 'slut'.Well he's a guy, but since he speaks like a women, i think of him as a slut...

Monday blues

So today is the start of the week and i am like kinda wiped out already. Not many things happen today so i'm cool. But i recently, i keep on receiving stupid sms,One of which is 96223654,and 92326766. So this 96223654 called me twice and so i got fed up and therefore leading to me calling him back. There was no answer. Lame caller! Okay then i started sending this person an sms,"who the hell are you?" and guess what, i kinda missed up a few digits at the back of the no. 92326766 which i sent by mistake to 92326676 and i got back a "what"from the person. It was really funny at that instance....and i found out his name, it was James,i think a typical Ah beng. You know what i mean. The way he texted in his msg's, it was like reflecting like an ah beng. Afterwhich, i received another sms from 93820220,he said his name was Anthony,from Hai Sing Catholic and when i asked him how he got my number, he said he got it from one of the guys in my school. I was extremely shocked to find that out. I did not know that the stupid childish guys in my class would do such a thing. I am appalled by their behaviours. So i decided to do the right thing by phoning up the guy whom i gave my number to, Zainul and ask him about the whole incident on whether he gave any guys in our class my number. But as you know, he actually denied all the facts and even sounded really defensive by saying that if the situation were to worsen, then i should report the matter to the police? Like what the hell, he said that maybe i was like a victim when somebody decided to do a prank call on me? Wow i was thinking, like how could this person have known which school i belonged to?, he really did his best to do some kind of research on me then. Things that Zainul had said or mentioned earlier on, were really downright stupid. How could anyone just randomly pick my number, knew that i was a girl from Greenview sec and wanted to make friends with me? I don't get it, i do not have friends from Hai SING Catholic. Whatever, but there is more to it, and i know it. A stupid idiot from my class had done. It's just that i do not have the evidence against them. Darn it!!!

What i really wanna be? Who am i? Where do i belong?

I have gave it a serious thought as to what i wanted to be. I wanted to score well enough for my N'levels to be able to make it for Sec 5. I don't want anymore people to look us down again. It's been 9 months since my grandparents had hollered our house number. It's just quite a difficult task for my grandmother to pick up the phone and maybe talk to us, at the very least, that's what i reckoned.

So yesterday after school, we had our E'maths remedial. Everything was kinda okay. Afterwhich, Christal, Marilyn and I headed down to the very famous district,the Loyang point!!! We talked for almost 2 whole hours, quenching our thirst in the coffee shop. It was a fun experience as i finally had the feeling of what friends are for. We bared our hearts out to each other and at first, we thought that maybe we should just keep our mouths shut as maybe we didn't want the opposite party to know what really was going on in our real world.But after the 'sharing' experiences, everything just seemed to fall into place.

It was like 'hey, for the very first time, my friends actually knew what the hell was going wrong in my world,'and that really felt extremely good! To have an actual listening ear was such a superb feeling, especially when one happens to be your closest friend....let alone mine, i had 2 great ears checking out my story, and just giving me the moral encouragement that no other friend has ever given me. A reality check as to why i never once mentioned my 'stories' to my friends...(even my closest ones), due to the cruel fact that i was being stepped in the back way back in primary school. Only from then on did i realise that there were no true friends on Earth...and had learned my lesson that i should have never told my secret to anyone lest it gets out.

Realising the fact that i had blabbered my secret out to 2 teenage ladies, i kinda figured that they were responsible people and knowing that my secret is safe with them, i feel much more secure about myself finding true friends in this world. I used to think that the bestest friend of yours, would turn out to be your biggest enemy and damn that pharse, i experienced it in my Primary 6 school yr.( so many things happened in primary school,it's my most unlucky school yrs ever). So it's also partly due to the fact that i kinda want to take a step back from all these friends stuff, as i am really afraid to get hurt again!!! Currently, i have 3 really best friends,Marilyn, Xiurong,Yayoi....they're fun people to hang out with but up till this day, i had only told my heart feelings to Marilyn and another girl whom i also considered as one of my besties, Christal.

The both of them are really great people to be with. I would briefly describe them:

Marilyn: She's a really great friend who is willing to stick by you when you are in trouble, and difinetly not one who runs away in times of trouble, leaving you to clear up the mess alone....she is mostly the one who would be able to cheer me up....we kinda have the same nosy aunties trouble at the back of our necks.

Christal: Cool and really confident. She is a really funny person as well, also gives really good advice and able to make me happy most of the time. I just feel secure when being with her,there's never ever a boring time when being out with her.

Xiurong: My class partner who has beautiful eyes and clear brown hair. Very sick in the mind and really can click with me in that prospect. There are times when she can feel so low and at times where she can get really high. When she is low, it's like you cannot do anything about it and everything stats to be a little awkward but when the high part comes around, she can think of many things that always links back to the S-word...

Yayoi: The brave and daring one of them all. Always stands up for us if anything seemed to go wrong or not to her expectation. Cheers people on and gives me a sense of security. She is also like a good advisor- as in providing great advice.

So far these are the people i feel most connected to....i think i should just end here and hope that my friends will not go onto break my heart like what my primary school friend had done to me.