Normal day..just as i thought

Well today was a supposingly normal day for me.....Woke up early in the morning only to find myself in an agreement that i had made with mummy the day before. That was to follow her to the NTUC to buy some groceries. So we did as plan and everything was fine, a burgar with some side dishes like chicken nuggets and fries was made for our dinner. The food was srumptous....an undeniable fact for the day.....really looking forward to the party this sunday and hoping with fingers crossed that Aunty Frances won't say anything bad....u know evil people are like that....But a sad thing is mummy won't be going to the party as she does not want to speak to the so called Betrayer. So ya, evrything is set as per usual,and i just have to attend it....one more thing,Found out that grandma called a few days ago as she wanted to move house...only when she needs helpwould she then call us..what the hell??? Now i have totally given up on her and everyone else around her...i don't know what is taken over my damn world! She used to be someone really close to me who would play with me and cuddle me up. But after moving to another house, she has changed overall...and i hate that change in her,it makes me puke...right now she is still going to move house once again, so definitely her attitude towards mine is gonna change as well!!! Let's just hope for a better change ya?

Just a little update on stuffs!!!!

So i skipped a couple of days and missed out some of the stuffs in my life.....but I'd just rather they were like that. Somehow, there were other things i would love to share on the blog, last few nights, my family played the very renowned game of Mahjong...everything was fun but however, my luck was extremely suckish the night before. So there is a high chance that maybe, we'll still be playing another game but we'll have to see how it goes first. My dad is working and maybe he's too tired and my sister, since she is still going to school, i guess she would feel tired as well. So basically the only people that is in the house early in the morning is only my mother and i.

Oh ya, an update about the relationship with my mother,everything is great now so it's cool. We talked and laugh as though nothing has ever happened...Isn't she the best? I just really love her...apart from her, there are other people that i love as well---my daddy and dearest sister....these are my coolest family members ever. Other than that, i have other people revolving around my life that i am not sure of but still then, i dote on them as a Friend or a sister....I mean this shouldn't be happening as i should only love and share the feelings around me with the people i know and care about. But hey, guess what---the more time i spend with a person, the more i start to dote on them. I really don't know what the hell is wrong with me...i mean, my family members( inclusive of my hypocrite aunties and uncles not my own family),has taught us to be really cold blooded and uncompassionate....but luckily, i'm not like them...at the very least, i share my compassionate heart with people that i love.......

Love List: Hate list:

1. Daddy 1.Aunty Loreen
2.Mummy 2.Aunty Francis
3.Nicoleann 3.Aunty Debra
4.All of nicole's frend 4.Randy
5.Marilyn 5.Nadia
6.Xiurong 6.Uncle Melvin
7.Christal 7.Glen
8.Hwee li 8.Mark.......if your name is
9.Claire not in the hate list
10.Yayoi then i am still fine
11.Jiawei with U...4 now!!!
12.Samantha
............................there might be more, but i can't remember now.......................

It suddenly came out....uncontrollable(totally)

A sunny day as it has always been and yet, it still had to come out---those hurtful words. I knew right at that instance that i had hurt my mother with those harshly words I'd used! Initially, my mum had decided to bring my sister and me to my great grand mother's house for a visit and i had agreed to go with mummy even when my sister backed out. But in the end,something cocked up and there i was throwing my tantrum not wanting to go with my mum. I told her off to make her own way there,but she said that she already promised yiyi to bring somebody along. I was stubborn and still insisted that i stayed glued to my sit....resulting in her attitude towards me throughout the afternoon. During the late afternoon,actually everything was okay,but then i had to go and open my big mouth and ask her a stupid question. Well that particular question that i asked really did me a lot of trouble man. It sent me straight off into the hot soup...In the night as i await my mother voice directing towards me,i was biting hard on my chocolate and staring at the view outside my house...the night sky was amazing!!! I had lived here for more than 7 yrs and i did not ever stop to notice the spectacular view i had covering the sky just outside my house!!! What in the world was i thinking man......At that instance, i diverted all the remaining attention i had left to my now raging mother....She was still soundly asleep as i made my way to her bedroom trying my very best to steal a glance, at her beautiful and graceful position in sleep. Only then did i start to entertain the thought that maybe, there was a high chance that mummy won't even speak to me ever again.....Again, i turned to look at her,now in a position where a baby that cuddles up all snugly. Mixed emotions surged through my restless body and tears started to flow down. I was feeling extremely guilty for what I've done. Remembering the thought that, someone had been doing that to her already,i still added onto her burden!!! I cried my heart out and decided that if i get back to speaking with mummy again, then i definitely won't commit the same mistake ever again. I love her and really should not have said those words.....in this post, i would really love to tell her that i am extremely SORRY for what I've done!!! It's only a matter of time that i say these words to her!!! But for now, i think i would just let everything fall where they may.....I'm only afraid that maybe, i won't be able to put the pieces back together again and just knowing that, i feel lost and empty deep down inside!!!

The rare opportunities we have....

Life is full of opportunities,but it's only how we make use of it. Take for example, the working life of an adult. Well i've always been wanting to get out in to working world so that i could spend on things without my parents consent. I was offered a job by one of my friends namely Wahyuni. But after finallising everything,i still wasn't able to go as i still missed those days that i spent with my parents.Imagine working on Christmas day,that would be boring for me as we i'd rather use the time wisely to go on a shpping spree......So right now at this juncture,i am really pondering as wheather to go for this great opportunity? But i have some reserves about the job still, as the information that i enquired from Wahyuni was that she only had a vacancy left. That equals to me doing the work all alone in the world..At first, i was supposed to do the job together with a few of my closest friends,but in the end everything was not what it seems before. In this post, i would really love to thank my friend-Wahyuni...for geeting me a space in the job but on the other hand, i would love to apologise to her as well as i don't think i would be able to make it..maybe i shall take this yr a resting yr and then start next yr? I don't know man, really nobody knows what is gonna happen tmr right? Or should i just let nature take it's course? Ya really well, i think that i would just leave it the way it is.........

.............Family Problems arising making the situation worser.........
So just yesterday, i went with daddy to a football game. A little update on the game though,Tampines rovers was playing against Geylang. In the first half,it was so damn difficult to concentrate on the game as the two teams were plying soft on each other,they managed a score of 1-1 in the first half of the game...so sucky!!! But guess what, during the secong half, talines rovers pulled back fast and having kicked in a score of 5-2...i really could not believe my eyes...it indeed was an eye operner for me. The way they kicked in the ball, it was like they had really trained hard for the game beforehand. So everything was smooth going and so on. Until uncle Alan started a conversation on the latest news that was bugging the family.

Just found out yesterday that now, Aunty Francis and Uncle Bernard were no more on talking terms already.......what a mess hae everything become? It all started with Aunty Francis making wild guesses without even finding out the truth first. She thought that Uncle Bernard made a celebration without inviting her,so in a pique, she told her husband...(Flinstone's), The whole story(don't know the real story yet), And guess what our HERO did? Well, quit guessing,i'll tell you,he sent a really hurtful sms out to Uncle Bernard...this is what was stated in the sms..." Hey,why you make party, u didn't even invite us? We are the godparents u know....In that case, return the taekwondo suit we lent ur son!!!"
How childish could those two ppl get man? And this was not even the real story yet? They only assumed and see how everything is messed up now? So on another day, (the main actor comes out now......) Uncle Bernard called uncle Alan and decided to tell him the whole story. Well he claimes that he did not hold any functions,it just happens that he had leftovers--pizza and chicken wings so he decided to call That stupid aunty of mine...LOREEN!!! And her two bladdy sons plus her husband to come and watch freaking FOOTBALL.....all i know is that they are all BALLS -CARRIER!!! i HATE THEM TO THE CORE....anyway, i have already severed ties with them so i'm not going to think stuff about them. It just breaks my damn heart into pieces...it isn't worthy anyway,how could i feel like that before...i still can't figure it out man......Actually we ppl just don't look around ourselves and have a compassionate heart for others...Or should i say this only occurs only in my SO CALLED fAMILY???.....iT'S TRUE,pls believe and u'll live or else once u get to know them, then all is too LATE!!!!

Q1. Who is the person(s) you love most in the world? The ppl closest to me duh!Q2. Irritating assholes who judge my freaking life.Q3. Do you have any stead?Nope and i would love to stay like this for now man.Q4. How many stead do you have before? ( includin the one you steadin with now)None,coz i'm an innocent growing teenager.Q5. When is the last time you told your stead 'ily'?Never.Q6. Who is your bestest friend in the world?Anybody that understands what is going on in my life.Q7. When is the last time you're sad?Never,always happy.Q8. How many msges do you have in your hp inbox?like 56 . How much do you love your bestfriends? Alot you just can't imagine. Who is the coolest person you know?Marilyn ,Jayce Xiurong n the rest of my gals.Name 1o people that has most attendance in your life.1. Marilyn Chia 2. Hwee li3. Xiurong 4. Christal 5.Nicoleann.6.Jayce 7. Jiawei8.Yayoi9.Claire10.Mummy and daddy Answer the questions about them :Q1. How much do you love no.7?Lots.Q2. Is no.3 the chio-est person in the world?Yar she she is.Q3. How will you feel if no.6 and no.8 are together?i would be like damn lesbians!!!..Q4. Do you think no.7 love you?Yupp As A cousin lol.Q5. Is no.1 attached? if yes, who?Not that i know of any.Q6. How tall is no.9?taller than all of us Q7. Is no.10 a girl or a boy?girlQ8. Have no.1 given you anythin before?Yes,alotQ9. How long is no.2 your friend?about two even yrsQ10. who does no.4 have a crush on?that's easy,jiro!Q11. Have no.5 ever hug you before?Duh,she's my sister,she even kissed me before.Q12. For how long have you known no.8?Alomost all of my living life.Q13. name a person that has a crush on no.7Me?haha i don't know.Q14. what many things have no.6 given you before?I forgot.Q15. Is no.2 the cutest person in the world?Yes n e sickest of them all.OK time for another QuizzyStarting Time : 7.55.Name : Cherylann Jeremiah Florence.Sisters : yap-1 and only.Brothers :No.Shoe size :it depends.Height :162.Where do you live :Pasir Ris.Favourite Drinks :A lot la.Favourite breakfast :Milo.Have you ever:Been on a plane : Yes.Swam in a ocean : like i could...Fallen asleep at school :of course not la .Broken Someone's heart :I think so?.Fell off your chair :never been there man.Waited for someone to call :Yes.What is your room like :orange and neat.What's right beside you : my music last thing you ate : western food:Never.Sore throat :DUH.Stitches:Nope.Broken nose:No but i dun wan it either.Do you believe in love at first sight :no la,so out of date man:So so la.Who was/were the last person :you danced with:family memberss.Last made you smile:sister and her friends + marilyn.You last yelled at:nobody la.Today did you :Talk to someone you like:no.kissed anyone:No.scared of AIDS sia:No.Talk to an ex:No.Miss someone : Yes.Eat:This is an essential stuff for humans.Best feeling in the world:yar.Do you sleep with stuffed animals:last time.Whats under your bed:another mattres.Who do you really hate:irritating assholes as mentioned.What time is it now :8:02pmRandom :Is there a person who is on your mind now:Yes.Do you have any siblings :yes.Do you want children :Maybe,when i get married.Do you smile often :i guess.Do you like your hand-writing:Im ok wif itAre your toe nails painted:Yes.Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in:chris pine?lol.What color shirt are you wearing now:brown What were you doing at 7.00 p.m.: Jus left t.mWhen did you cry last:Long time,dun wanna cry again.Are you friendly:A bit more than less.Do you have any pets:nope.used to.Where is the person you have feelings for right now:home?Did you hold hands with the person who mean anything to you now :No.Do you sleep with the TV on :No.i onli slp in my room,which has no tv.What are you doing right now:Anwering these questionares.Have you ever crawled through a window :nope,im afraid of heights.Can you handle the truth:Depends.Are you closer to your mother or father:Not Sure.Who was the last person you cried in front of:Parents.Do you eat healthy:Only After School/Hot Days.Do you still have pictures of you & your ex :No.Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you:SeldomIf you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to:E quiet park if i happened to be outside.5 things I was doing 10 years ago :-2and yr in pre-school.-crying.-jumping.-playing.-Running.5 things on my to-do list today :Dunno i dun plan.5 snacks I enjoy:Ice Cream,Chocolate,Candies,Loacker waffers and Hello Panda.5 things I would do if I were a billionaire :Liven alone,shopping,spa,facial,improvise.5 of my bad points:fierce,lazy,crazy,snobbish,unreasonable.5 people:marilyn,wei liang,wen,ann ann and rong rongWoots finished!bye~

Has the world come tumbling down on miie?

Monday, a start of every week. It was supposed to be a great day,but it all churned out to be an antagonising one for me. Right at the start of the day, my aunt came to my house and my sister was teaching my cousin some stuff. It all turned out well and everything was fine without a single bit of turbulence. Until i hit the call button that lured me into it's dangerous trap.

"Hello,Cherylann?"

"Yes, it's me,i was wondering if you have the time to chat? It's been a long time since we checked each other's lives out man!!!" I daringly replied.

"Okay.sure no problem. I would love that!"

As the conversation went on, i realised that indeed i was no longer her "FRIEND". Why was it so hard to speak to her now. I could almost feel my heart popping out from it's original place. So i did as planned,i really wanted to get to know why she is all emo and stuff. But all she did was to open her mouth to tell me that she was just tired and all. Tired,was that the prime factor bothering her all the while? I guess not,as i could see from her eyes that she was hurt but had no one to pour it out to!!! Hey there Kelly(not her real name),if you have any problems you can really come to me for help,anyway i am your friend you know! I would be really glad if i could do my utmost to help you with your problems.....

"Nah, i think i am alright....i don't need to talk to anybody!!! Just don't bother about me okay? Anyway, if i have any problems, i will talk to someone closer!!!"

On hearing that, my heart just suddenly sank to the very bottom of my body.I could not find the right words to say to Kelly anymore."Someone closer? What did she mean by that? Am i not close to her enough? 6 yrs of relationship and now she tell me that we're not close enough as compared to another person? That was like a ' wow' factor for me to take!!!

" Okay, I'm sorry for intruding on your privacy and maybe i shouldn't have! But i was just wondering why you're making your life in such a miserable state!!! You have everything in the world, MONEY,PARENTS LOVE, GOOD FRIENDS,A NICE HOUSE,CARS....so on and so forth. All this emoness,is just eating you inside out....you are not who you used to be anymore!!! I really hate to do this, but i love you as a friend and by seeing this, i feel really hurt....it's like your there but still, i can't help you in any aspect of your life.Friends should tell each other their problems and not keep it to themselves. It's just harmful to your own body...There she was shedding a little bit of tears and " -------------" It was dead silence throughout. She hunged up on me and right at that instance, i just knew i lost a wonderful friend forever and ever. Just having the thought in my mind where i would not be able to see or speak to her ever again just breaks my heart into a thousand pieces.

I guess i won't be able to put the pieces back together again. Suddenly, it has gotten me thinking about the 6 yrs as 'Her ' friend. We went through thick and thin together,laughed together and cry together...but after hearing her comments,i think we should have never gotten together in the first place. I thought i had a real friend after all the betrayals that came through in my life,but now all i get is just another dashed hope of having a true best friend that will never part with me!!! Thinking about the fact that i still have other friends that are in the same school studying with me,i am somewhat relieved to have them by my side!!! At least for now, i can still see and speak to them. Knowing that they really care about me just warms my heart so much,i just really wish that they would not be like my other friend Kelly----to say i am not considered close to her and then leave me in a lurch!!!

Any day that can ever be as normal.

So yesterday,i had a talk with Xiurong and found out that she thought that the previous post was on her. But luckily, everything was cleared up so it's no biggie.I managed to pull it of and so xiurong is nursed back to her normal self. So i forgot to post on the three exciting days when i played badminton with my sister's friends. Namely, Jayce,Christian,Aloy and Zhilling. At first, i thought that it would be boring as i am 16 yrs old and felt that it was difficult to click with 12 yrs old students. But in the end i think i have to take that back as they were really fun people. I did not think that they would be able to play so well......But i believe i was taken aback. Aloy played so well as though he was a pro or something....And there u have Jayce,the cutie girl who polished thru her skills as she played along. There was another girl-Zhiling,really cool skills...played well though. Lastly,Christian was one hell of a funny dude man. He's like so funny that he could keep us all laughing throught the game....rock on dude!!!

There would be a next game maybe tmr? I'm not sure man...but all i know is that my aunty is coming tmr for some lessons..whatever that is...looking forward to seeing her man.