No church life--i guess?

Well it's a sunday already and yes,today we didn't attend church again....This always kinda happens so i'm quite used to it. So anyways,although i skipped mass,at least i wen out once to make my day fun. Unlike my sis,she is sucha a home kind of girl....My parents always say that i have long legs...that's doesn't happen to fall in the good kind of category,it actually means that i like to go out all day long...in portugese it's called- BOGAR...Cool right,see at least i found out that i can speak a word of portugese. LOL,okayso onto the outing..it was a visit to Bedok. Firstly we had to visit great-grandmother then we wanted to see 1 of the aunties daughters...She was supposedly mommy's godsister. In the end, she couldn't make it because she had something on-laast minute. Very well,we were there chatting happily with Lao Ma and she seemed so cute for her age actually. The way she speaks and moves just makes her look cute. A majority of elderly at their age is suppoed to have problems anwsering ppl back, but it was so much different with her,it was like she could answer every single question. I really love this great-grandmother. She's cool!

After all that chatting,mommy and i made our way down to Bedok coz it was the nearest to great-grandmother's house. We shopped for stuff there and oh k...not everything there was nice looking,but if u really paid attention to the stuff around you, there is a small chance that you would be able to find things there of your choice. So it's cool,mommy bougt so many things for us....3 dresses in total,2 hair bands(belonged to mommy)....and other stuff. We had the intention of purchasing that pair of shoes for quite a reasonable price,but decided to give it a slip as the slaes person inside was looking quite *you know la*.....don' really wanna describe it....

Oky,then it was staight home.....and my sister was taking some photos which i personally thought was cool. Check this out.

This is basically my eyes under

the sunlight...i really love the

browness.....

This is my sister's eyes.......

as you can see,her eyes is so much

bigger......

Baggie has finally arrived ya'll!

Yes,today I'm so happy....i finally made a trip down to WS to get my baggie and i simply loved it. It's blackish brown in colour,i don't really know how to explain it. Well it's something like black when it isn't under the sunlight and all. But i really love that bag la. Not only that, i still managed to get the watch i had been waiting for so long.....I just can't seem to stop buying things actually. Bought a pair of earrings that is in baby blue in colour-reason being, to match my head phones....

So as my sis and i was taking a slow walk to the shops,she suddenly came up with a question" would you have a BF when u reach the age of 22?"......I was quite stun though coz i didn't expect her to ask sucha question. Right at that instance,she made a bet with me stating that i definitely would go into a relation when i am 22 yrs old....Hah, i'm not going to lose to her man. I told her straight off that i wouldn't have a BF--not until i really need one. And she was like...oh-puhlese---don't talk la u...u're so vain!!!....

But deep down i knew what i wanted most in my life. It wasn't love,it was every other thing except love. Family,Frends and many other things. I mean c'mon,love isn't everything that revolves around the world... It's just a waste of time and it hurts people....so why in the world would i get myself into this mess??? Never....!! Moreover,there's so many aids cases these days and it just gives me the cold feet when people are having sucha an intimate relationship.

I know that it might be a good thing to have a person hold you around the shoulder when u r sad,but then in the end it's the "main factor" that guys are looking for... and it's the girls that suffer. There is no true love on earth right now and it's really difficult to find that special someone who can share your burden. We should just look forward in lives and forget abt those mushy stuff for a second. Priorities must be set right in order to arrive at our goal....at least that's what i think for now and nothing can change my mindset until i meet one at the right age.

Just something sweet sis dedicated me:

♥If i had a heart filled with love,i would give it to you. You're close to me and i love you. You are special in every way. A great person like you should be adored and loved by many people. You're a brave,beautiful,kind,caring and amazing person! You can't imagine how much i love you,in a way that no one can comprehend........♥

I would love to say that i love you too Nickky. You have always

occupied a special place in my heart,a space that is tailored

made for you. Nobody can ever have you replaced! Thank you

for always being there for me and making me feel that i am

special. Thanks for thinking of me in a perfect way,to me u too

r the perfect baby sister I've always have. To summarise it all

♥I LOVE YOU♥

♥

Sleepy,droopy,eyes...to keep awake!

Okay the last day of school and we were feeling quite sad. Not for me,coz i think i really needed the break as the flu hasn't even subsided. I just feel like so tired lately...Now i'm here posting stuff right after my dinner and i don't usually take my dinner that late. Today's an exeption because once i reached home and took my shower,i just fell asleep like that=so easily? Yap,and then i awoke at like 7.15,so that's precisely how tired i was as everything gathered from the past few weeks where i didn't get to sleep properly. Maybe as people ages,insomia would occur? Actaully it isn't something that terrible though,it's only to the extent that i listen to music every night as i don't really feel like falling into the embrace of sleeping. Just yesterday,i listened to the jiving music only to realise that i hadn't off it at 4 am in the morning. I tell you, this would definitely be taking up the battery coz for the whole night, the music player was on.

Ok,lemme recall! Today was kinda of a rainny day.. It only started pouring in the late afternoon...i think? Alright,holiday is coming...but there isn't any chance where we get to really relax though,judging from the amount of homework we were given at the end of the day!!!!

♥Homework to be completed and passed up after holi's♥

1♥ English WS(something like comprehension based)
2♥ E'maths practice paper(Anglican secondary-pass sch papers)
3♥ A'maths EX.18-q 7,8,9
4♥ Geography project work(individual)
5♥ Chemistry WS(Calculations).......

That's basically everything,execpt for Chinese and social studies if i'm not wrong. On a monday morning,we have to go back to te school for some mock exam papers. That kinda sucks man...Althouhg it isn't counted in the results and stuff,i still keep pondering over the matter..not knowing whether i'll do go for this practice. I trully think that all subjects are rather important,so i wouldn't wanna flunk this subject though.

Modern Teenage life

So well,today the lessons in school was still pretty fine...although,i nearly fell asleep during a few periods.Or should i say snooze? Sleeping sounds quite funny... Anyway the start of the day sucked big time. I mean i'm staying so near the school yet it seemed so far away when i'm on the way to school. Didn't really manage to make it through and got booked for being late. Luckily it was my first time ,so there wasn't a need to attend detention at the end of the day. Despite everything, i know that i have learnt my lessons and this will defininely be my first and last time. Never is it going to happen again. Hate being held back! The feeling is just so different....It feels weird.

After school M,Y, X and ME went to SPC....not knowing what SPC stands for,i ramdonly asked the gurls and M was fast in say:"Suck Penis Cock"...I was like what? F**k that's sick man.....then i was thinking how can there be two same private parts...shouldn't it be something like:" Suck Penis Chee bye"?.....Haha, right at that instance all of us were like practically laughing our heads off.... Our aim was bascially to buy that cup noodle and get the hell outta of there...so we did as planned. For some reason,only to be held back by the jokes the aunties were making in the shop.

We took a photo and i think it's really artistic though it contains vulgar signs...Okay, i think it's not that visible.....check it out...

Okay initially my parents had planned to go to WS....but there was a slight change due to the homework and my cold. Yes,i'm officially down with a cold....i mean there should not be much of a difference though coz from young i have sinece...(however it's spelled)....But flu is totally different as it just keeps coming non-stop...On the other hand,sinece is like getting a block nose in one the nostrills,so that's pretty much the small difference!

I think i'm done here so i'll stop. Will keep updating but for now i have some things to deal with!!!

Happie B-day 2 Yayoi/ME!!!

I woke up feeling all the same even though today was supposed to be my big day. I guess i'll have to see things from a different angle. Today was superb! XR asked me question" so how? How does it feel like to be 17?? Are you excited/thrilled?"...Then there was silence and i replied"i guess i feel the same la...no difference what,it's only a birthday thingie. Well i'm so sorry XR,i now have the final anwser to your question!

Quoted by:Cherylann(deep down from the heart)

>I feel elated to know that you gurls remembered my
B-day and actually organized aa mini celebration for Y
and me. Right at that instance,i just felt that the moment
was perfect and flawless. Perfectly wonderful! I loved it
and really enjoyed myself loads. Thank you gurls so very
much,all of your actions were so thoughtful to the extent
that it may just send me crying! A good thing i was able
to hold back my tears. So ya,NJ wasn't able to join us,but
that's alright......Lastly,thank u J,for rushing down to
celebrate the party with us...much appreciated!
We were definitely going crazy abt everything around us....Anw,thx for those who wished me....
K,now i shall let the pictures do the talking...

So there was this guy from the lower secondary who stood behind us and started singing the birthday song for us...HAHA,it was amuusing i must say. Hey anyway Y's crush was there okay....actually James was there too la....It was so coincidental? I just can't believe it man. Well when the gurls saw him,they were like calling my name okay. I mean c'mon la,i don't like him right? Okay wait there is a teeny weeny bit of liking-but that's just coz he's face is so damn cute la. Whenevr i see him, i would imagine myself pinching those juicy,chubby cheeks of his...LOL,i don't know why i ever have this imagination man. I gotta admit that sometimes my imaginations run wild...but ain't that a good thing??? Ya,coming to the topic of James...haha,so since the gurls were teasing me,i decided to play with them....i was like posing for the cam like tht close to him man...i tell you,it was amusing..and we kept laughing until the whole of the mac's turned to look at us!!! I don't have the picture now coz it's taken with XR camera....if not ah,i would comfirm post the pic....Haha,even until now,thinking of "HIM"makes me laugh till my head drops !

Back to School:0

So after that sumptous meal at mac's,we headed back to school for CCA. Before attending our cca,we were going around distributing cakes that were being left over...Initially,we had planned to offer that piece of cake to MR ong,but too bad,he went home early and boy was Y sad....Hehe,then we decided that we should give Mr heng,but coincidently,he wasn't there either. Therefore we gave the cakes to the other teachers around. We gave to at least 5 teachers and there were: 1)Miss kok(took a pic)

2)Goddess Ang

3)MR RAMAN(took a pic)

4)Mr chang

5)Miss lim chiang siew(took a pic)

Miss lim was like--huh can don't take photo? My fringe sooooo short...in actual facts she didn't want to be posted in blogs and stuff. So ya,the rest of the teachers were okay with their pictres being taken....pics will be up as soon as i get it...

Thank you gUrl

Today as per usual i attended lessons like any normal teenager would. Thank you-Xiurong,a lucky thing she accompanied me to the e'maths remadial or else i would be left all alone. Alright,so many things happened today. In a summarised form,it was quite fun la. Especially during CME,lol there were 4 guys up in the front of the class because of something they wrote. But seriously,it was nothing....I guess they wrote some "indecent" stuff during English period. Shall not reveal too much!! But all and all,it was funny la. Mr ong was like interrogating the 4 of them,forcing them to say the stuff that they wrote. Then it was onto assembly,boring as usual....nothing much to comment abt though,except for this particular teacher! I really dislike her la,always scolding us at the end of the assembly period....Okay onto the next stuff,i really wanted to go to Central today to buy the food there but i couldn't go as i needed to attend remedial classes. What a dreag?So basically today is a rather short post as nothing much happened. I heard that our fire drill would be postponed again to next term due to the wet grounds in the school field!!! Shit man,i really hope that there'll be fire drill tmr.

Sunday....when will u be back?

So today is Sunday and i dread it coz i'll have to buzz to school tmr again. Sunday is gonna be over soon and i'll have to wait another week before it reaches this day again. No worries,it will be here in a click! (I hope)....So basically today we went to church and did some praying to PAPA and MAMA. It always feels like it's been a really long time since i've spoken to them,ya of course it's a long time since i last spoken to them,why? Coz they have passed away for many yrs already...Silly me,sometimes i just feel like holding them in my arms once again but still, i know that it would never come true,not until i die!

Like one of Hana Montana" songs:

I miss you,i miss your smile....

And i still shed a tear,

Every once in a while.

And even though it's different now,

Your still here somehow,

My heart won't let you go,

And i need you to know,

I miss you....sha la lalala,

I miss you!!!

Although i miss them,i know that they are resting in the hands of God so i shall not bother them too much with all the cryings and stuff. It's quite a pity that i didn't get to see my Grandmother when i was younger but still after listening to the stories my mum told me abt Ganny,i love her alot. I could imagine her patting my head when i did well in something and when i was sad, she would be there all ready to hug me,making me feel better.....

Personal stuff:

I realise that i have personal issues abt my weight when my sis just jovially commented on the jeans....Great now,now all the "self-conscious" particle are building up insde of me again....I'm starting to feel that i've grown fat. Whenever i stare into the mirror,i would start finding for those fatty tissues. I have tried ways to calm myself down by obtaining peopls's reassurence and none of them said that i was fat,instead some of them thought that i had lost weight!

How could that possibly be? The person i see in that reflection is a total different description of what others say. My sister told me that i might be suffering from some kind of "image disoder" thingie....Is it true? I really cannot answer that myself.........

I truly understand the feeling of being obesse beacause as a young gurl,i myself was quite an over-sized person.....Being branded the name" fat gurl" everywhere around. People around me always insulted me to a great extent thus leading me to vigorously excercising....I wanted to be that perfect person..However, i decided to throw in the towels as i learned that nobody was perfect. There's definitely bound to be flaws in a person somewhere. It's either character wise or body shape wise....I really have that sense of urge to go and try traning myself to be that flawless person. In the end it's still my hard work right?

I strongly feel that as individuals,we must leave a lasting impression abt ourselves,as in a good way. People shouldn't go out to the streets looking like a freak or like those who just woke up from bed!! We should go out in beautiful clothes and in an appropriate hair style....Only then will people look at us in a different way....Yes so i've decided that i want that change in me!! I'm gonna summon all the willpower i have deep down inside of me to work my way out....I'll prove all those people wrong! I swear,i'll reach my target by the end of the yr(latest)......!!!!